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3 months ago
2/29/12
Well my loving tumblr peeps! It’s a special day! Its February, 29th! This day only occurs once every four years so I figured “I might as well do one of my updates which occur every now and then”. March 28th, 2011 is my last update! Holy SHIT. Almost a whole year! Well Imma try to catch y’all up on recent times! That girl Liz I talked about before? I actual got to date her the day after she rejected me on my birthday! I was determined and it worked out! Those two weeks were…wow (: My second favorite relationship. Yes, it didn’t last long. She wasn’t ready for a serious relationship like that (at least not with me). Although, At her birthday party I met this girl named Brandy and we got to talking after me and Liz broke up. We started dating then.( BIG MISTAKE) Liz was furious at Brandy and those two are no longer friend which you would expect. Me and Liz still kind of communicated during those 3 months of the summer me and Brandy were together. SHIT was FUCKED UP. I seriously made a stupid mistake. BUT A GOOD ONE(just read on and see). Mine and Brandy’s relationship was really shitty. She only talked about herself and hardly cared about what I was doing if didn’t involve her. We always argued and only the physicality was good. We were total opposites too. I broke rules and did whatever I wanted. She was a goody goody and told her mom EVERYTHING. I changed for her so much too. I wasn’t as hyper and I tried not swearing as much. I was mad at everyone all the time. My bestfriend Josh was getting annoyed with me. Brandy even did things with other guys to piss me off and get me jealous. Of course I acted all depressed and purposely upset her back… Eventually Brandy started losing feelings for me and although I threw her a surprise picnic and sung to her. We still broke up. The next day me and Brianne got into a “relationship” on facebook to mess with for being a bitch. :) Senior year started then and guess what!? I joined gymnastics! (I had quit waterpolo the previous year to focus on my ACT and i got a 25 on it!) I wasn’t that good to be honest lol, but I had 5 months to practice before real season! During this time only a few major events happened. 1. I got accepted into Northern Illinois University! :D 2. I saw my favorite band, Mayday Parade!! ^.^ 3. Me and Liz fully become friends again and we trusted each other again ^-^ 4. During my time with Brandy, One day she introduced me to her bestfriend at the time Ali. Brandy leaped into my arms then Ali jumped on us knocking Brandy down and I fell trying to catch Brandy. Brandy busted her elbow open and My shorts fell off lol. I had to pull them up! Then me and Ali had a real hug and I felt something weird with her. Like the hug felt GOOD. That was all though. (that was in the summer) Then in October, Ali randomly messaged me right before I was going too because I heard she got tired of Brandy being a bitch too and they weren’t friends anymore. We started talking about Mayday Parade. I posted a lot of songs to her facebook wall! It was awesome! I got her number and We texted that whole night. I knew by this point that I could see myself with her. She said she had told herself not to fall for me. Of course after a bunch of nights of staying up till 1-2, She fell for me. She even used a geometrical equation to compare me to Eminem! lol. Liz even started pushing me to date Ali(She is also one of Liz’s bestfriends, but unlike with Brandy she encouraged this!) Nov 13th, 2011 I finally asked Ali out..or implied it anyways lol. Since then we have been happily together and we couldn’t be anymore happier. We don’t argue all that often. (: She loves me through all my faults and insecurities and I love her through her anxiety and her psycho Mom-Hitler(that’s a story for another day!) She’s the best to ever had happened to me. We communicate great and we have a Mutual Balance like no other!<3 We also have a stuffed horse as a son named Wiston(: We switch off having him every week(right now we’re at a 2-week interval) lol. Throughout all this, I learned a shitload in gymnastics and got quite buff ;) Im closing into graceful when I do stuff now! I got a 6-pack that can be seen when i flex! We had our first meet yesterday and I performed decently. I loved it! I was so nervous but thinking about Ali made it easy ^.^ I got my handstand on P-bars today! I’m sore lol. I’m going to talk to Ali, on the phone now Tumblers! I may post one again soon? I have no idea. :P haha. Hell, It’s been 11 months since the last! Stay High, Tumblrs! Bye :D
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Notes: 24417 / 3 months ago from exploringtheforest (originally from me-and-my-self-esteem)
Kyle loves me like this. Love like this doesn’t have to be romantic.
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4 months ago
Triangular Theory of Love
The nights
I spent alone
The pain I suffered
The words spoken but with no meaning
The expression on her face as she left me in the dust
I laid awake at nights wondering when it would end
The memories overflowing my mind
The ache only a broken heart can make
That was were you found me
Broken
Shattered
Desolate
You captured me in your arms
Showed me a new beginning
One where trust and compassion entertwine
Where intimacy, passion, and commitment blossom together
A triforce of components
Evolving into one
One emotion
Love
You taught me all these things
Now together we stand
Brought together by our past mistakes
Our preivous losses
Our same desire to fee
lSuddenly, everything shifts beneath our feet
The world swirls
There we are
Together
The forces that brought us here
Heal themselves
As we wrap our bodies togethe
rThere is no denying
Love has once again found a way
To take two souls
Lost
Alone
And form one eternal being
Two people
One soul
Together i know we can withstand it all.
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7 months ago
The Memory
Its been a year now
I’m still here
Lost
Sad
Confused
Why did you go?
You didn’t even say a word
You just left me
With the memory of us
How we were
The love and passion that escaped from our pores
This illusion is driving me insane
Can anything help
Everywhere i turn
There you are
Looking into my eyes
Saying those three words that meant the most to me
I blink
You’re gone
The tears stream down my face
I would give anything to have you back
This is not the way things should be
Sleepless nights
Holding onto the memory
The nights we shared
The moments we made
The life we could have had
Am i cursed?
I can still feel your lips against mine
Your hand in mine
Your cheek against mine
Our legs tangled
NO
No
no
no…
This can not be real
This isn’t real
You love me
I love you
You would never leave
Come tell me this is a joke
I laugh hysterically to myself
I will wait for you to come back
Like i know you will
The memory
Taints my soul
Drives delusional
Yet i dont care
I’m still here
Its been a year now… -
7 months ago
Go. Smile.
And go
See the rainbow flying across the sky
Visualize the grass green
The sun shining bright
The soft breeze
Gently caressing your body
Let this vibe fill your soul
A day like this shouldn’t go
Everything is perfect
You hold your arms up to the heavens
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7 months ago
Beginning.
Lets hope this works
Lets have all the words flow
Simple and pure
No stopping this tune
Playing over and over in my head
Writer’s block is just a dream
That haters think about
I’d rather write something wonderfully beautiful
Something inspirational
All takes is the right mood
And the right tune
Im starting now
Let the poetry begin. -
Notes: 72 / 7 months ago from ataciara (originally from heyletshuggle)
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7 months ago
You never knew it
You never knew
Never took the time to see
That i’ve been standing here
I always have been
Right here, behind you
Ready to catch you, if you fall
I never speak the words
Never make a move
For all you know
I could be invisible
Can’t you just see it in my eyes
Just sense it
Radiating from out of me
There is no better inspirationOr motivation
Then you
You make the world stop
Why cant you understand
Here i am
Standing in the shadows of your lifeNow and forever
Just turn around and you’ll finally see
I am everything you want
Everything you need
Still you dont see me, but
We have fallen together
Risen together
Much like a phoneix still
I have never given up hope
Never given up faith
That one day maybe you’ll turn around and see
Me
For all that i am and will be
But until then
Here i will stand
Behind you
Invisible
Never letting you fall. -
7 months ago
The climb
Nothing compares to this
This feeling of raw emotion
Determination at its finest
I may have fallen
And crashed hard
But im not down
I will stand again
Tall and as proud ever
Nothing can stop me
I will start here at the bottom
The bottom, where everything has been lost
Shattered into pieces
I will climb from there
To the top
Throw your rocks at my feet
Put obstacles in my way
I want you to do your worst
I will just laugh and continue on
Nothing can hinder this adrenaline rush
Nothing is out of my reach now
That i have fallen and learned
Have been humbled by this mighty world
I can start over
Wrong my rights
There is nothing that i fear
The journey starts here
In this pit of desperation and despair
But i will not be shaken
So onward i climb
Free and alive
Knowing of one of this life’s most important lessons
For one to come to the top and win
First you must fall and lose everything
So you know what its like to have lost
Then you climb
And climb
climb
climb
Until you hit the ledge
Pull yourself up
And smile
As all of your wildest dreams have come true
It was a bloody, wicked hell you went through
But you have beaten it
You did this by yourself
Stand tall and proud
But never forget what it was like at the bottom
That feeling of raw emotion
Determination at its finest
To succeed
Nothing compares to it. -
Notes: 524 / 7 months ago from whenthedayymetthenight (originally from -dreamingwithabrokenheart)
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